Pale breasts bared to you
Offering hope, light, a way
Suckle and be healed
Blue Rose Tarot
Created by Paula Gibby
Published by Soul Guidance
The book says: For now, each star in that vast dark canopy is also sending out threads of light, connecting with each other until there becomes a limitless glittering web extended over the entire stretch of sky. And the Fool comes to understand that these are souls that are in other stages of their journey. They represent souls that have traveled these earthly paths before and moved on, or they are waiting their turn to once again play the Great Game. And in the meantime, they look down over the souls traveling along the paths…and they send their love down to them.
And then, another vision, for now the threads from the sky above and the waters below extend towards each other…glittering sky web to shimmering watery web…until they are joined, as one. And gradually, for the first time in this new place, the Fool hears something. At first he cannot identify it, but then, almost overcome with weeping again, he realizes what he is hearing.
Millions upon millions of soft voices chanting as one. Chanting a great song of life, of existence, of love.
The miracle of the Universe lies in our infinite diversity. The blessing of the Universe lies in our infinite unity.
TarotBroad’s Buzz: To me this card symbolizes grace, beauty and hope. There is a mystery and magic about it bringing to mind a child dancing among the snowflakes of the first snowfall – happy, gleeful and awed. The dancer seems oblivious to her surroundings and is solely focused on her dance. She reminds me that even in the darkest night there is a gleam of hope and beauty to be found. She represents the wonder and amazement we feel when we stare up at the night sky and see it is dappled with glorious white stars. She is there when we wonder if there is life on other planets and when we wish and hope for something better in our lives.
The star dancer doesn’t grant these wishes for us, she glides and dances teaching us the moves we need to manifest them on our own. She is a light in the darkness, a guide light which we can follow but she cannot offer guarantees. The truth is that while we can follow the Star’s light only our own perseverance and determination can ensure whether it guides us to the place we want to go.
There is also something pure and innocent about the star dancer. She is a young child putting on a performance in their room completely unaware that grown ups are watching. Perhaps we must be careful not to startle her. Her magic may lay in the fact that she is so self-absorbed that our expectations and needs don’t impinge on her consciousness. She is able to create her magic because no one has ever told her than she cannot. She is full of potential and wonder, sure she can be or do anything she desires because of this purity and single-mindedness. Once faced with the outside world she may begin to doubt herself too but right now she is our shining beacon calling us to regain that child-like innocence and wonder. She helps us reconnect with our ability to believe in ourselves with such purity and focus. She shows us how to be shining stars in our own lives once again.
Created by by Arnell Ando
Published by US Games (2006)
The Book says: Optimism, a message of promise, insight, inspiration and renewal. We each have a connection to a star in the sky and a place on the universal map of existence. Broadening one’s horizons. The healing of both body and mind. A flow of pure universal energy is available to you, you need only be open to receiving it.
TarotBroad’s Buzz: I had to think about this card because at first glance it’s connection to the traditional associations of The Star was not apparent. But as I looked closer it began to dawn on me. The spider weaving her web is part of a never ending process. She weaves her web, it serves its purpose and she moves on. She weaves a new web, it serves its purpose and she moves on just as we weave our fate or our destiny – the warp and weft of our lives.
The spider is a reminder that when things seem hopeless we have the power to leave it behind and move on. We can weave a new reality for ourselves, we can sprinkle our lives with the energy of the stars if we wish. The crescent moon is also a reminder of change – she experiences monthly cycles of varying degrees of darkness and light. She is a reminder of the saying “it is always darkest before the dawn”. That is the power of The Star. She is that pinpoint of brightness that pierces the darkest night bringing the first inkling of new possibilities.
Stars decorate the darkest night sky and bring us a sense of awe and wonder. How many times have you stared at the stars and wondered if there is life on their planets or what lies out there among the stars. Science fiction authors have woven thousands, if not millions, of wondrous tales to answer that question. And what many of them share is a sense of optimism, a hope for a new beginning. That is what this card represents – hope, optimism and the promise of new possibilities and new potential.
Mansions of the Moon Tarot
The Books say: The principle of self-esteem and confidence, knowledge being given out, principle of courage to be ourselves, opening to the Goddess, hope, a sense of healing and wholeness, especially after emotional storms.
TarotBroad’s Buzz: I love this image. It just brings to mind a sense of healing, purifying ourselves, washing ourselves clean. We can celebrate who we are and accept ourselves. We can gather fluid from the stars and sprinkle ourselves with star matter. As Crosby, Stills & Nash (maybe Young) sang “we are stardust”. This card brings that sentiment vividly to mind. I am able to grasp the star chalice and heal myself. This Star offers the healing power of the Holy Grail. It will make us whole again but we must believe it ourselves and in its power.
I just love how open and vulnerable the central female figure is. She is so focused on herself and her healing that she leaves herself unprotected and unshielded. She no longer needs her protective armor. She is open to the healing energy of the stars and the water and the amethyst. She is a reminder that in order to truly heal ourselves we must also risk coming out of our shell and being vulnerable. Only then can we truly experience the magic and wonder of The Star’s energy.
Celtic Wisdom Tarot
Text by Caitlin Matthews, art by Olivia Raynor
Destiny Books, 1999
The Book says: The Dreamer shows the god Noden, aka Iriel Faith (True Seer) and Nuada Airgetlam (Silver-Arm) who had a healing and dream incubation shrine on the banks of the Severn. The two-headed nature of the god represents outward sight of the physical senses and the inward sight of the seer or dreamer. The yew is the Celtic tree to the Otherworld, gateway to the Land of Promise. Its evergreen spines and red berries create the appearance of a tree on fire.
Keywords: Hope, insight, inspiration, healing, unconditional love, optimism, keeping faith, dreams, aspirations, widening horizons, promise and opportunity, a period of calm after storm, recovery.
Reversed: Hopes dashed, doubt, short-sighted outlook, poor health, negative self-image, pessimism, insecurity, self-doubt, lack of trust, swept into a spiral of activity.
Soul Wisdom: What is the important source of refreshment in your own life?
TarotBroad’s Buzz: The image on this card is reminder that The Dreamer (Star) is about healing and renewal. It is about looking back to see where we come from so that we can heal ourselves. If we don’t remember what the roots of our illness are then how can we hope to heal. Sometimes facing the past is the hardest thing to do. We have already survived the earth-shattering Tower and we want to focus on the hope and healing offered by the The Star but is we don’t remember what we learned during that Tower moment. We don’t incorporate it into our lives and that may limit our ability to heal.
The Dreamer shows that we need to look within and without, behind us and ahead of us in order to fully experience the healing energy of this card and the hope it represents. Hope is more than just closing our eyes to reality and ignoring it. Hope is facing the reality in our lives and still believing that things will work out for the best. In fact in some healers are beginning to realize that if a patient doesn’t have hope, faith and optimism then any treatment may ultimately prove unsuccessful because these things are necessary for us to heal on a spiritual and psychic level.
If we believe we can heal, then we can. There is a phrase (which is almost a cliche) if you can dream it you can achieve it or as the Rocky Horror Picture Show suggests “don’t dream it – be it”. Both offer similar insight. Dreams are an important part of who we are as humans and if we allow ourselves to appreciate them, our hopes, dreams and optimism can help us reach our goals. Dreams can heal us and make us whole; they can open us up to new possibilities and potential. But we have to be willing to take that chance and open ourselves us to the healing powers of the Dreamer.
Wheel of Change Tarot
created by Alexandra Gennetti
Published by Destiny Books, 1997
The Book says: A galaxy swirls around its creative center. IN a reading this powerful card symbolizes creative potential and the ability to shine out and radiate confidence in its application. You have the opportunity to stand out in the crowd and to present yourself and your ideas in ways that influences the outcome of the situation. Confidence flows through you, and you feel as if your creativity and potential for expansion amplify the power of your ideas. The expanding spiral of your influence begins with a creative spark – and indeed, you are at the center of the galaxy. Every idea and creative impulse gives us the potential to shine for others, and through the diversity of our experience and the variety of our ideas we all are able to be the central star.
TarotBroad’s Buzz: I just love the energy and radiance that swirls across this card. There is something about it that connects with The Empress for me – that feeling of being the center of someone’s universe and the world spinning around your axis. That must be how a baby perceives its mother and vice versa.
This card brims with potential and hope. I love the concept of a central creative force, it brings hope that even if humans don’t clean up their act this central creative force will find a way to keep life going and the universe will go on. We may like to think that humanity and Earth is the center of the universe but on some level we all know better. I love how the Star Maiden blends the fiery, brilliant orange & yellow energy with the calmer, serene blue and silver energy. She both feeds it and is fed by it – a reminder that we are all yin and yang, masculine and feminine. There may be moments when one aspect dominates (or when we prefer to focus on one aspect) but we are a composite of all these energies.
It’s funny but when I was looking at this card a line from the movie Boogie Nights popped into my head (what can I tell you – I flash on some really unusual connections). I remembered the scene at the end of the movie when Dirk Diggler has returned to working with Jack Horner. He is dressed in a white Miami Vice type suit, standing in front of the mirror and he unzips his fly and reveals his “gift”. And as he does so he says to his reflection “I’m a star, I’m a star, I’m a star”. And in some ways the end of this movie does reflect the hope and faith present in The Star. Despite all of Dirk’s mistakes and experiences, he still finds his way back to the one place he was happy, the only true family he has ever known. And he is forgiven and reinstated to his place at the hearth. That to me is what Star energy represents. No matter how far we may have wandered, her light still shines on us (even when we live in places where it is impossible to see her) and blesses us with her energy. Even in NYC during the blackout, when everything around us was dark, the Star Maiden blessed us with her gifts and took away the fear for just a little while.
Tonight, while sitting on the porch staring up at a deep blue canopy of stars, I found myself thinking about H.P. Lovecraft and his view of the Universe as a cold, distant, uncaring and even hostile place. I realized that while I may enjoy reading his eerily eldritch stories, I do not subscribe to this viewpoint. As I sipped tea and stared at the stars I felt as though all of my ancestors were looking down and watching over me. I had a sense of connection and belonging. It was as though the Universe cared, even if it couldn’t do much to show me right now. It filled me with a sense of hope and wonder.
The more I thought about it the more I felt like Pandora in Greek legend. Despite being surrounded by a world filled with personal and global ills, I do have a sense of hope. I harbor and nourish that little seedling even through the darkest times. I have layered this spark in a thick, protective hedge of sharp thorns and snarky barbs but it glows within me and refuses to allow itself to be diminished or extinguished. She dances within, occasionally surprising me with her exuberance and strength.
As imperfect as my life might be right now, there are moments of transcendent joy and beauty. They are usually such simple things as enjoying a cup of tea or seeing the heron that has taken to hanging out nearby. They are easy to miss and dismiss but recently Joanna Powell Colbert shared a practice of honoring Happiest Moment of the Day (#HMOTD). I have decided to participate in this practice. It’s so easy to focus on the misery, unhappiness and chaos that swirls around us. It’s more challenging to find the joy and happiness in small things; brief moments.
I must admit, my surprise at realizing that I am an optimist. For so long I viewed my self as a pessimist. Now I need to readjust that and say I’m a practically cautious optimist – I brace myself for the worst but hope for the best. It’s also a relief to finally embrace this side of myself. Sometimes it’s exhausting keeping up the charade of being a pessimist. Of course that doesn’t mean I’m not a cranky optimist prone to rants and bouts of snarkiness, but that just add more dimensions and layers to my personality.
Yesterday, while working on my Dark Goddess labyrinth journey, I drew the Hag of Air/Dhumavati in response to my request to Sekhmet for a message. Looking at these two cards together, I asked: “How can I transform the ugliness of my childhood into something healing and radiant?” Using the Pearls of Wisdom tarot, I drew The Star reversed and The Hierophant reversed. Despite their reversal, the vibrancy and the positive energy I sensed from these cards made it impossible to interpret them in a negative way. So I spent some time with the cards and read their entries in Roxi Sim’s companion book. Looking at the entry for The Star the phrase “unconditional love” jumped out at me. This was it! This was the message of this spread!
When I look back over some of the blog entries I’ve written, it occurs to me that I still carry a lot of damaged baggage from my dysfunctional childhood. Don’t we all? My family’s dysfunction might have been different than what others experienced, but to a child does it really matter? What’s more important is how it leaves you feeling – vulnerable, hurt, damaged, weak and ashamed (among other things). I’ve met many adults who find it difficult to accept that the childhood chaos and dysfunction was out of their control; that it wasn’t their fault and there was nothing they could do to stop or change it. As a result they sometimes convince themselves that they wanted the situation to play out the way it did or they resort to various methods of self-abuse such as addiction or bulimia because it gave them the illusion of control. I remember how awful and terrifying it was as a child to be awash in the craziness and unpredictability of my family’s dysfunction. I couldn’t see it coming and could do nothing to change the events that unfolded. At least if I was drinking too much that was my choice (or so I tried to convince myself).
The one thing that I took away from this dysfunctional and damaging childhood was that I was somehow not good enough. If I were good enough and met expectations then I would not have been punished. Those outer punishments took the form of some viciously malevolent inner demons whose talons still pierce my soul. Seeing The Star shining brightly like a beacon from this card made me realize that the one thing I’ve never received in my childhood, and so found difficult to give to others, was unconditional love. Love with no strings attached; no expectations. Just a pure, healing balm that soothes the shredded soul. The Hierophant reversed is letting me know that I still have some learning to do before I can begin trying to teach others. It’s funny, I resist my Hierophantic nature all the time and yet I consistently get messages that part of my journey is to teach. Perhaps this will ultimately be what guides me down that path.
I thought about the unconditional love I’ve experienced in my life. It’s most pure and joyful expression was from my German shepherd Rebel. No matter how angry I might have been with him for some petty reason or other, his excitement and happiness when I got home every day was bliss. He greeted me, jumping and wagging his tail so much his whole body wriggled with it. He was unconditional love personified. Even the cats I’ve owned have been generous with their affection. If they did withhold it for some reason, it was clearly due to their feline nature rather than do to any emotional manipulation towards me. I’m sure anyone sharing their lives with animals has experienced numerous expressions of unconditional love. They model it for us all the time and we are able to return it to them because we trust they will never hurt us. We can be vulnerable and exposed with them because they won’t betray us.
So I have decided that my next experiment/project will be to emulate my German shepherd Rebel and just allow myself to feel the joy at a friend’s return; to offer unconditional love to myself and those around me. I know this won’t be easy – I am by nature a judgmental, occasionally vindictive bitch. However I know I can do this. I have experienced moments of transcendent bliss when I am able to love everything and everyone around me. I just have to try to create or recognize more of those moments in my life.
At the same time, I realize that not everyone out there is deserving of our love, conditional or otherwise. There are many predators who view this kind of attitude as naive, gullible and ripe for targeting. I am not gullible or naive. I’m not interested in embracing the world and teaching it to sing in perfect harmony (although if that every happens I’ll join my voice in too). What I”m talking about is loving those in my life unconditionally, without judgment or restriction. I’m not seeking a plethora of new friends, I simply want to be more loving, understanding and supportive of the ones I’ve got. My love is valuable and should not be wasted on those seeking to take advantage.
So TarotBroad fans, if I am able to give you nothing else today, let me offer you the healing balm of unconditional love and acceptance. You are perfect. You are worthy of love. Your love has value. You are an amazing being and have a lot to offer this world. You just need to find that place within yourself where you can embrace and embody these truths. For that matter so do I. I have no doubts this journey will prove long, challenging, and very interesting but every journey starts somewhere.