So, I have noticed my pattern of butting heads with authority figures. It’s not that I don’t respect people in positions of authority, it’s simply that I refuse to respect them merely because they’re in a position of authority. In fact when I run into “authority figures” that assume they’re entitled to respect because of position and/or money, I tend to get confrontational. It brings out the worst in me. In fact I’d had incidences where I’ll run into an authority figure (usually an alpha male type) who raises my hackles so much I feel the urge to growl and bare my teeth at him. I can’t necessarily pinpoint why I react this way. It tends to occur exclusively with male authority figures. I get along quite well with most female authority figures – especially those labeled ball busters. So that clues me in that one of my issues has to do with gender power dynamics too.
I decided to use Tarot to ask the universe “What is my relationship to authority?” I drew the 2 of Cups from the Pearls of Wisdom Tarot. Looking at the image I was struck by the way both figures in the card seem to be equals. They are both grasping a chalice in one hand and touching their partner intimately with the other. They each gaze into each other’s eyes and are approximately the same size and height. Each figure has a flower behind them and a tree beside them. Both figures are framed by a fish, necklace and chalice. There is a balance present in this card, a sense of equality and true partnership. The power and authority in this relationship go both ways. Perhaps their powers are not identical but they are equal.
That suggests my issues with authority flare up when things are not equal. I have no problem with authority figures who treat others with the respect and courtesy they expect. I also prefer the give and take with an authority figure who is as open to listening as she/he is to talking. Perhaps there is truth to the fact that most women’s management styles are more inclusive than many male managers’. Those are broad stroke generalizations but in my experience they’ve proven true.
My next question to the Universe was “Why is my relationship to authority this way?” I drew the Ace of Swords. My immediate reaction was that my relationship to authority causes me to feel the urge to cut through the bullshit when faced with one of those negative authority figures. I feel the urge to confront and puncture their egos. It’s not necessarily the most mature response but it’s true. Maybe on some level I also hope that confronting them on their behaviors might open their eyes and allow them to explore new ideas and beliefs about power and authority. I suppose one can always hope (and keep on fighting!).
TarotHunter’s Silver Bullets:
- As you seek our answers to your questions and pursue new ideas and ways of thinking, remember that new isn’t always better and “old” isn’t always useless.
- Be cautious that your rational, intellectual approach to life doesn’t leave you isolated, unemotional, and cold. Even Mr. Spock had feelings, he just did not allow them to rule his behaviors.
- Share your passion and enthusiasm for intellectual challenges and new ideas with others. Perhaps they will become excited too and join you or support you in your journey.
Tarot Hunter’s Silver Bullets:
- Okay, you’re not a frickin’ Jedi Knight. It’s time to stop blindly swinging swords around the place. Unique skills have a time and place – this ain’t it.
- Take off the blindfold and look around you. You’re still operating from past intel. Things around you might have changed and you’re oblivious to it because you can’t see it.
- You may think you look cool poised over a crevasse like some Ninja, but you’re starting to worry your family and friends. To them, you looked deranged, not skilled. Enough is enough already. Your point has been proven and now might be a good time to move forward instead of staying stuck in this position.
Tarot Hunter’s Silver Bullets
- Cutting off heads can be fun for a while but eventually people will avoid you out of fear. Maybe it’s time to occasionally sheathe the sword (or tongue).
- You may know a lot, you may think a lot, but you can also isolate yourself a lot. Climb down off that peak and interact with the common folk for a while.
- An effective communicator knows when to speak and when to be silent. Mastery implies knowing that listening and hearing are just as important as talking.
Tarot Hunter’s Silver Bullets
- Perhaps you feel defeated & bereft now but at least the battle is done and now you can move forward.
- There is no shame in losing the battle as long as you fought the good fight. No one wins them all.
- Did you lose to a foe or did you defeat yourself? Who were you fighting – an opponent or your own shadow side? Your own self doubts and inner demons might have undermined you in this struggle.
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Heart’s blood flows no more
Swords of betrayal withdrawn
Move forward and heal
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Pierced in mind and soul
Seeing the path to freedom
Can I walk the path?
Tears at your graveside
Mourning all that has been lost
Life pulls me forward
I offer the book
Source of knowledge and learning
Embrace its power