TarotHunter’s Salt Rounds:

  • No matter how heavy the burden you bear, how great the responsibility, keep hope alive in your heart.
  • The heavier your burdens get, the more important healing yourself becomes. Don’t let caring for your own physical, mental, emotional and spiritual needs fall by the wayside.
  • Believe in yourself even if you believe in nothing else. Even in the darkest times our beliefs are what sustain us. If you believe you can achieve your goals then you will, no matter how burdensome the challenge.

 

 

Wheel of Change Moon

Wheel of Change Moon

Wheel of Change Tarot
created by Alexandra Gennetti
Published by Destiny Books, 1997
ISBN #0-89281-609-0

 

The Book says: When this card is a part of your reading you are experiencing a kind of foreshadowing: an intuition, suspicion, and fear of what is to come. This card signifies a time in which shadow aspects of your personality or things that are hidden in darkness are developing a life of their own. Sometimes these things are positive, creative aspects of the personality and lead to a deep appreciation of our talents and our humanity. Whatever is at work in the darkness, it is time to pay attention, as the opportunity for real growth is present. Follow the cycle of the moon and try to recognize its development from new to full and its return to full. Watch how it becomes visible in the daylight hours and use its phases to help you illuminate your own situation. The Moon card represents inner process, and these processes work well with the help of symbols; the moon’s changeability is just such a transformative process and a visual tool for growth and change.

TarotBroad’s Buzz:  To me this Moon card symbolizes the mysteries of the unconscious and the hidden aspects of the human psyche – those things we only dare to address in the darkness of the night. Very often the Moon is associated with women’s mysteries and women’s cycles. I’ve never really felt that connection myself. To me the Moon is more of a psychological card; a card that forces us to face the things that scare us deep down inside. The Moon is about the unknown and our terror of things that go bump in the night.

It has always amazed me how familiar things appear so much more threatening and fearsome in the dark. This card represents the darkness present in the human soul and our ability to do horrible things to each other. At the same time The Moon symbolizes dreams and intuition, trusting our inner voice and inner wisdom but even that can seem like a scary, alien landscape. We are so often taught that there must be a rational explanation for everything. However even if mysterious things can be explained in a rational way, that doesn’t mean it’s the only possible explanation. Look at crop circles and UFO sightings. There are rational and logical explanations for both of these phenomena but that doesn’t necessarily mean these are the only possibility.

The Moon didn’t become any less magical and mystical just because humans landed there. It is still a beacon in the night; a light which guides us through the darkness and helps us find our way. The Moon may not be able to make all the darkness and scariness disappear but its presence helps reassure us that we are not alone. I remember as a child being convinced the moon followed me home. How many people wish for the moon. The moon is the keeper of our deepest dreams, our secret desires and our hidden shames. Perhaps the moon can eventually help us realize that there is a time to face and address these desires, dreams and shames otherwise we don’t allow ourselves to transform and move to the next level. It may be a messy, frightening prospect but the moon will help guide us along the path.

Blue Rose Star

Blue Rose Star

Blue Rose Tarot
Created by Paula Gibby
Published by Soul Guidance

The book says: For now, each star in that vast dark canopy is also sending out threads of light, connecting with each other until there becomes a limitless glittering web extended over the entire stretch of sky. And the Fool comes to understand that these are souls that are in other stages of their journey. They represent souls that have traveled these earthly paths before and moved on, or they are waiting their turn to once again play the Great Game. And in the meantime, they look down over the souls traveling along the paths…and they send their love down to them.

And then, another vision, for now the threads from the sky above and the waters below extend towards each other…glittering sky web to shimmering watery web…until they are joined, as one. And gradually, for the first time in this new place, the Fool hears something. At first he cannot identify it, but then, almost overcome with weeping again, he realizes what he is hearing.

Millions upon millions of soft voices chanting as one. Chanting a great song of life, of existence, of love.

The miracle of the Universe lies in our infinite diversity. The blessing of the Universe lies in our infinite unity.

TarotBroad’s Buzz: To me this card symbolizes grace, beauty and hope. There is a mystery and magic about it bringing to mind a child dancing among the snowflakes of the first snowfall – happy, gleeful and awed. The dancer seems oblivious to her surroundings and is solely focused on her dance. She reminds me that even in the darkest night there is a gleam of hope and beauty to be found. She represents the wonder and amazement we feel when we stare up at the night sky and see it is dappled with glorious white stars. She is there when we wonder if there is life on other planets and when we wish and hope for something better in our lives.

The star dancer doesn’t grant these wishes for us, she glides and dances teaching us the moves we need to manifest them on our own. She is a light in the darkness, a guide light which we can follow but she cannot offer guarantees. The truth is that while we can follow the Star’s light only our own perseverance and determination can ensure whether it guides us to the place we want to go.

There is also something pure and innocent about the star dancer. She is a young child putting on a performance in their room completely unaware that grown ups are watching. Perhaps we must be careful not to startle her. Her magic may lay in the fact that she is so self-absorbed that our expectations and needs don’t impinge on her consciousness. She is able to create her magic because no one has ever told her than she cannot. She is full of potential and wonder, sure she can be or do anything she desires because of this purity and single-mindedness. Once faced with the outside world she may begin to doubt herself too but right now she is our shining beacon calling us to regain that child-like innocence and wonder. She helps us reconnect with our ability to believe in ourselves with such purity and focus. She shows us how to be shining stars in our own lives once again.

Transformational Star

Transformational Star

Transformational Tarot
Created by by Arnell Ando
Published by US Games (2006)
ISBN:1572815396

The Book says: Optimism, a message of promise, insight, inspiration and renewal. We each have a connection to a star in the sky and a place on the universal map of existence. Broadening one’s horizons. The healing of both body and mind. A flow of pure universal energy is available to you, you need only be open to receiving it.

TarotBroad’s Buzz:  I had to think about this card because at first glance it’s connection to the traditional associations of The Star was not apparent. But as I looked closer it began to dawn on me. The spider weaving her web is part of a never ending process. She weaves her web, it serves its purpose and she moves on. She weaves a new web, it serves its purpose and she moves on just as we weave our fate or our destiny – the warp and weft of our lives.

The spider is a reminder that when things seem hopeless we have the power to leave it behind and move on. We can weave a new reality for ourselves, we can sprinkle our lives with the energy of the stars if we wish. The crescent moon is also a reminder of change – she experiences monthly cycles of varying degrees of darkness and light. She is a reminder of the saying “it is always darkest before the dawn”. That is the power of The Star. She is that pinpoint of brightness that pierces the darkest night bringing the first inkling of new possibilities.

Stars decorate the darkest night sky and bring us a sense of awe and wonder. How many times have you stared at the stars and wondered if there is life on their planets or what lies out there among the stars. Science fiction authors have woven thousands, if not millions, of wondrous tales to answer that question. And what many of them share is a sense of optimism, a hope for a new beginning. That is what this card represents – hope, optimism and the promise of new possibilities and new potential.

Mansions of the Moon Star

Mansions of the Moon Star

Mansions of the Moon Tarot
ZADOK (dahogue@nctc.net)
Self-Published

The Books say: The principle of self-esteem and confidence, knowledge being given out, principle of courage to be ourselves, opening to the Goddess, hope, a sense of healing and wholeness, especially after emotional storms.

TarotBroad’s Buzz: I love this image. It just brings to mind a sense of healing, purifying ourselves, washing ourselves clean. We can celebrate who we are and accept ourselves. We can gather fluid from the stars and sprinkle ourselves with star matter. As Crosby, Stills & Nash (maybe Young) sang “we are stardust”. This card brings that sentiment vividly to mind. I am able to grasp the star chalice and heal myself. This Star offers the healing power of the Holy Grail. It will make us whole again but we must believe it ourselves and in its power.

I just love how open and vulnerable the central female figure is. She is so focused on herself and her healing that she leaves herself unprotected and unshielded. She no longer needs her protective armor. She is open to the healing energy of the stars and the water and the amethyst. She is a reminder that in order to truly heal ourselves we must also risk coming out of our shell and being vulnerable. Only then can we truly experience the magic and wonder of The Star’s energy.

Celtic Wisdom Dreamer

Celtic Wisdom Dreamer

Celtic Wisdom Tarot
Text by Caitlin Matthews, art by Olivia Raynor
Destiny Books, 1999
ISBN 0-89281-720-8

The Book says: The Dreamer shows the god Noden, aka Iriel Faith (True Seer) and Nuada Airgetlam (Silver-Arm) who had a healing and dream incubation shrine on the banks of the Severn. The two-headed nature of the god represents outward sight of the physical senses and the inward sight of the seer or dreamer. The yew is the Celtic tree to the Otherworld, gateway to the Land of Promise. Its evergreen spines and red berries create the appearance of a tree on fire.
Keywords: Hope, insight, inspiration, healing, unconditional love, optimism, keeping faith, dreams, aspirations, widening horizons, promise and opportunity, a period of calm after storm, recovery.
Reversed: Hopes dashed, doubt, short-sighted outlook, poor health, negative self-image, pessimism, insecurity, self-doubt, lack of trust, swept into a spiral of activity.
Soul Wisdom: What is the important source of refreshment in your own life?

TarotBroad’s Buzz: The image on this card is reminder that The Dreamer (Star) is about healing and renewal. It is about looking back to see where we come from so that we can heal ourselves. If we don’t remember what the roots of our illness are then how can we hope to heal. Sometimes facing the past is the hardest thing to do. We have already survived the earth-shattering Tower and we want to focus on the hope and healing offered by the The Star but is we don’t remember what we learned during that Tower moment.  We don’t incorporate it into our lives and that may limit our ability to heal.

The Dreamer shows that we need to look within and without, behind us and ahead of us in order to fully experience the healing energy of this card and the hope it represents. Hope is more than just closing our eyes to reality and ignoring it. Hope is facing the reality in our lives and still believing that things will work out for the best. In fact in some healers are beginning to realize that if a patient doesn’t have hope, faith and optimism then any treatment may ultimately prove unsuccessful because these things are necessary for us to heal on a spiritual and psychic level.

If we believe we can heal, then we can. There is a phrase (which is almost a cliche) if you can dream it you can achieve it or as the Rocky Horror Picture Show suggests “don’t dream it – be it”.  Both offer similar insight. Dreams are an important part of who we are as humans and if we allow ourselves to appreciate them, our hopes, dreams and optimism can help us reach our goals. Dreams can heal us and make us whole; they can open us up to new possibilities and potential. But we have to be willing to take that chance and open ourselves us to the healing powers of the Dreamer.

Wheel of Change Star

Wheel of Change Star

Wheel of Change Tarot
created by Alexandra Gennetti
Published by Destiny Books, 1997
ISBN #0-89281-609-0

The Book says: A galaxy swirls around its creative center. IN a reading this powerful card symbolizes creative potential and the ability to shine out and radiate confidence in its application. You have the opportunity to stand out in the crowd and to present yourself and your ideas in ways that influences the outcome of the situation. Confidence flows through you, and you feel as if your creativity and potential for expansion amplify the power of your ideas. The expanding spiral of your influence begins with a creative spark – and indeed, you are at the center of the galaxy. Every idea and creative impulse gives us the potential to shine for others, and through the diversity of our experience and the variety of our ideas we all are able to be the central star.

TarotBroad’s Buzz: I just love the energy and radiance that swirls across this card. There is something about it that connects with The Empress for me – that feeling of being the center of someone’s universe and the world spinning around your axis. That must be how a baby perceives its mother and vice versa.

This card brims with potential and hope. I love the concept of a central creative force, it brings hope that even if humans don’t clean up their act this central creative force will find a way to keep life going and the universe will go on. We may like to think that humanity and Earth is the center of the universe but on some level we all know better.  I love how the Star Maiden blends the fiery, brilliant orange & yellow energy with the calmer, serene blue and silver energy. She both feeds it and is fed by it – a reminder that we are all yin and yang, masculine and feminine. There may be moments when one aspect dominates (or when we prefer to focus on one aspect) but we are a composite of all these energies.

It’s funny but when I was looking at this card a line from the movie Boogie Nights popped into my head (what can I tell you – I flash on some really unusual connections). I remembered the scene at the end of the movie when Dirk Diggler has returned to working with Jack Horner. He is dressed in a white Miami Vice type suit, standing in front of the mirror and he unzips his fly and reveals his “gift”. And as he does so he says to his reflection “I’m a star, I’m a star, I’m a star”. And in some ways the end of this movie does reflect the hope and faith present in The Star. Despite all of Dirk’s mistakes and experiences, he still finds his way back to the one place he was happy, the only true family he has ever known. And he is forgiven and reinstated to his place at the hearth. That to me is what Star energy represents. No matter how far we may have wandered, her light still shines on us (even when we live in places where it is impossible to see her) and blesses us with her energy. Even in NYC during the blackout, when everything around us was dark, the Star Maiden blessed us with her gifts and took away the fear for just a little while.

Mansions of the Moon Devil

Mansions of the Moon Devil

Traditional Meaning:  The Devil represents being bound by our own desires and shadow.  We could easily free ourselves from these bonds if only we stopped and thought about it.  It’s almost like the novelty toy called Chinese handcuffs – two people put one finger in each side of the object and the harder they pull away from each other the tighter the bond grows.  It is only when they work together and move towards each other that they are able to break free.  The Devil reminds us that is we don’t work with our shadow side, we are doomed to remained chained helplessly chained to it.

TarotBroad’s Buzz: This card speaks of facing your shadow side, that dark, “evil”, primitive side of ourselves which we would prefer to deny even exists. Psychology has many terms for this side of human nature – the id, the anima/animus, etc. At first glance this card seems somewhat dark. The presence of the winged woman, reversed pentagram, the goat-headed female and the green demon all suggest the struggle between good and evil, between right and wrong, between heaven and hell. But if we look closer we see signs that all is not quite so gloomy. Yes, there is a darkness inherent in this card. But there is also a sign of hope.

The flaming torch may be the gift of the shadow side – enlightenment and illumination. Once we have faced the darkest side of our nature we are freed. We acquire knowledge and wisdom about ourselves and about the world. In many ways it reminds me of growing up and realizing that the world is not all sunshine and rainbows. That our parents are not perfect and don’t have all the answers. The Devil is a reminder that the challenge is not in being able to face this dark side, it is in being able to incorporate it into our being without becoming lost in it. Losing ourselves in addiction or mental illness or unhappiness means the shadow has taken over. We have the ability to face the evil in humanity without losing sight of hope and the good things. ‘

Sometimes when watching the news there is such a focus on negativity that it’s easy to forget about the positive things. This card reminds me that there are millions of ordinary, every-day people who face this darkness each day and are still able to emerge hopeful and triumphant. They can embrace, accept and forgive this darkness and not lose themselves within it.  This is something we should all aspire to achieve in our lives.

Losing sight of my dreams

Dark Goddess 2 of Water

 

Over the last two weeks, during my Dark Goddess labyrinth journey with Arianrhod/The Moon I’ve drawn Lorelei/2 of Cups three times. This makes me realize that there is a subtlety to her message that has been eluding me. The majority of the cards I’ve drawn along with Lorelei have been either Cups or Majors. This tells me that one of the challenges she’s pointing out is that the next major shift/life lesson for me will involve my dreams and emotions; two things I’ve lost touch with over the years.

When I looked over these cards they forced me to reflect on the fact that I truly don’t know what my dreams are anymore. I had dreams when I was a kid, although as with most childhood dreams they were mostly vague, nebulous and unrealistic (like wanting to be a princess). As I grew older my dreams became more practical and less connected to what my soul desired. I wanted a job that I enjoyed that paid me well. I wanted things – computers, clothes, etc. I wanted to attend college. I wanted to be the director of the recreation center I attended as a child. Of these goals, only the last one felt connected to my spirit. The rest were either to prove my worth to others or so that I could silence my spiritual ennui with stuff. It worked for a while but eventually cracks appeared. Even achieving the last goal was ultimately not as satisfying as I had hoped, a;though I was glad I manage to accomplish it.

Considering the Lorelei’s appearance with The Moon, I realized that I haven’t even tried to connect with my dreams or my inner desires in a long time. Feelings of betrayal and disappointment had caused me to dismiss them as worthless and pointless. Of course this left a huge hole in my soul. I didn’t realize it until I sat down to write this. It began to occur to me that without dreams we have nothing to look forward to in the future. Instead it becomes a vast, desolate wasteland; an endless barrenness that one tries to avoid at all costs. It explains my rigid and stubborn resistance to change. At least if things are familiar they offer a certain level of comfort and consistency, even if we don’t feel a sense of excitement or joy. Unfortunately this very sameness makes it difficult to get up every day. Who really wants to live a same shit/different day existence?

The Lorelei’s song is luring me to a land of dreams and desires; a world of hope for the future. That is a scary, unfamiliar world indeed. I don’t know what I’ll find there but just making the decision to follow it is encouraging me to decide to plan for the future. It is making me feel more alive and creative and excited. That terrifies me and exhilarates me at the same time. I want to dance to her song but not get crushed on the rocks. Of course the truth is that nothing in life worth doing is without risk. I’ve been avoiding risk for a long time (or at least telling myself that I”m avoiding it) but the reality is that I’m deluding myself and it’s time to stop.

Yesterday i drew the ogam Duir/Oak

Green Man Tree Oracle Oak/Duir

 

Based on its meaning, I asked the following questions:

What are my greatest strengths? 6 of Cups
How do I use those strengths? 3 of Swords
How do my strengths hold me back? 4 of Cups R

I interpreted these cards this way:

My greatest strength is that I remember things – family stories, fun memories, etc. and I honor those memories.  The 3 of Swords suggests I use those memories as a tool to help me get over betrayal and heartache.  The 4 of Cups R suggests that sometimes holding onto those memories holds me back because they prevent me from admitting when I’m unhappy or dissatisfied with situations.  I feel I owe something to someone so I can’t say I don’t want to do something for them.

Today I drew the ogam Saille/Willow

Greenman Oracle Saille/Willow

 

Based on Erynn Rowan Laurie’s take on this Ogam in her book Ogam:  Weaving Word Wisdom, I asked the Tarot:  Where am I resisting the flow of my life? 4 of Cups, 3 of Swords R + 6 of Cups R

Drawing these same cards today is reinforcing the message from the 4 of Cups R Saturday. If I’m going with the flow in my life then I need to be honest about what is making me dissatisfied and creating a sense of ennui. I think the 3 of Swords R and 6 of Cups R are reinforcing the concept that there is no way to stop the heartache in this situation no matter which choice I make. And all the good memories and nostalgia in the world can’t make this better. This is what it is.

Perhaps these cards are giving me the message that I need to stop fighting the inevitable. It’s not a sign of failure on my part (even if it feels that way right now). It’s not because I’m weak or incapable. Their needs are just beyond my ability and capacity to provide for or fulfill. If I keep caring for them it will mean my life is on complete hold for an indefinite time. I don’t know if that’s fair to me or them. It will cause me to become resentful and angry. That won’t make me especially nurturing or caring.

I also have to think of their needs. Is it fair to my brother-in-law that his social contacts and experiences are limited to me and hubby? Is it fair to my mother-in-law that there might be treatments that might improve her life but we can’t provide them for her? Is it fair that hubby and I can’t even go out to dinner for an hour?

I don’t kid myself that life is always fair or just. It’s also sometimes very ugly and cruel. However in these circumstances there might be steps I can take that will change that. There might be resources available that will make things a bit easier and less stressful on us all. Accessing those resources isn’t begging or a sign of weakness or mean that we’ve failed. It means we’ve accepted the truth and realize we need help. Asking for help is a sign of strength, not weakness. It’s time I embrace that concept.

 

 

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